Try, try again...

Now I can know this blog is here and not feel like such a failure. I think I actually am doing it this time. Wierd... but who am I to question it. Damn near cold turkey, too.

I started with the patch as usual but the first time I forgot to change it and didn't realize, and still didn't particularly crave cigarettes, I kinda knew this time it was for real. Yay!

My sense of smell is very enhanced right now...my one son got in the car yesterday and I could smell his twizzlers in the bag and the sour apple lollipop.

I managed to make it past the ...I cannot breath... hump, too. That is always the hardest one..a few days out, you get all kinds of clogged up and it seems the only thing that helps is a cigarette. If you can just get past that, then it's good.

I did take some sleep aids in the form of melatonin this time so that I would sleep right and not be so tired when I wake up. Tired has always been a trigger for me.

Anyway...woo hoo!